I told her once on a porch swing that it hurt me to consider not loving her because I knew I would ultimately give my heart to another and forget her. I have.
Five great questions of life: Life * Love * Learning * Labor * Leadership
Dating Finale - Busting Nancy's Ghost
By Evan Nehring
Nancy began to see Ronald, another young man at the church. Weeks turned into many months as I tried to move on. Then one morning, I woke up and I knew. I knew she had gotten engaged. Without getting out of bed, I called her and said, “You’ve gotten engaged haven’t you.”
Indeed. Ron had taken her that very weekend on some sort of hike overlooking a scenic vista and presented her with a ring. We hadn’t spoken for months, and that very morning…I knew.
Nancy’s ghost helped end several of my relationships. The grip on my emotions was too much. I finally called out to God and said, “I can’t do this anymore! I need you to put that part of me to death. I’ll start over fresh with you today, but I can’t resolve or understand anything that I’ve felt and experienced. I need to die to the old me.” It worked. Though we were never intimate and never married, my internal vow to Nancy was binding until I put the old me to death.
I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. (Galatians 2:20, NIV)
I guess if death therapy was good enough for Bob Wiley and Dr. Leo Marvin, it ended up being good enough for me. Jesus was with me through all of the drama.
I told her once on a porch swing that it hurt me to consider not loving her because I knew I would ultimately give my heart to another and forget her. I have. The love I have found overwhelms me. I thank God for my family over and over again each week. It’s not on a thank you list, it just bubbles out.
I’ve been pretty low, but the crucified one has been lower. There’s life after death, even on this side of the grave. I needed the life-giving power of God to pull me out of my emotional slough. But before that moment and ever since, I have been determined for my love story to reflect God’s love story for his people.
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